less than a month left!

today was my 35 week appt. I havent really posted much on the status of baby knox. they have insisited on many more ultrasounds than I m used to and everytime I go to the doctor I leave the office a little worried. last week the baby was behind in measurement and poundage but that never worries me until she said that my placenta had calcified in many areas. its not that common but sometimes the placenta dies before the baby is born and no longer provides nutrients to the baby and then you end up with a still birth very late in the pregnancy. I went home and researched online and immediately changed my mind. I didnt want to scare myself so I waited patiently for todays appt. He said that they would do a stress test on me every week. they hook me up tp a monitor and can tell if the baby is still thriving or not. he kept stressing how important it was for me to call them if Im not feeling the baby move. I was thinking that was a wierd concept because wouldn't it be too late by then? anyway, for now the baby is fine and has even grown a little we are almost to five pounds so we are slowly hitting milestones. I was too afraid to get anything ready for this baby and the other day my friend gave me an outfit and it hit me that soon, a body would fill it out. It sounds dumb, but I think I m so nervous that I wouldn't let myself get too excited about his arrival. I know that it is a horrible way to think so I m trying to change my ways. I am in so much pain still like someone broke my pelvis. I have to crawl around the house a lot and I am in tears many nights. anyone reading this that hasn't had kids yet, no this isnt typical and its the first time Ive had to deal with misery at the end of it all! don't let me scare you-all my other pregnancies were easier. I am definately nesting and my house is looking terrific (thanks hun!) and we just had company in town and took some fun pics so there are more posts to come soon!